when people bring up self harm i always see people asking why people do this.
its always "ooh it does stupid brain shit that makes you feel less bad mentallyyyy" idfk i cant remember the reason people say your brain makes you do it
i hate how people always assume its cause of that, like for me at least its a bit of that but it just feels good to me and i like blood, more than i should really, i like the scars, i purposefully make sure it scars
i started self harming with scissors and beating the shit out of myself and later i figured out how to unscrew a pencil sharpener and ive been using pencil sharpener blades since then. i plan on eventually moving to a sharper blade or something bigger when i find the means to
i love pain and i love blood but only MY blood and i love the scars
i support cutting yourself and bleeding everywhere and liking it
i yearn for someone else to hurt me because im too wimpy and scared to go deeper than cat scratches. i yearn for someone to hurt me but be nice about it like yeah fucking stab the shit out of me but like lovingly kiss my forehead and tell me its okay too